- VANESSSAAA?!! HEY V!!

          damnit. i got up so quickly that i pushed scott aside he almost fell into the pool.

it was natasha! what the hell was she doing here now?

- who is it? scott said

- it's natasha.

          i went inside and found natasha looking for me.

she studied me from head to toe giving away a suspicious look.

- did you drop your phone into the pool or something!? she said

- no... why?

- why?! v, i've been calling and texting like an idiot!! why didn't you answer?

- ohh... sorry i haven't checked my phone all day, i lied

- are you seriously kidding me? did you hit your head into the pool ground or something?

- no? i said and giggled

- well you must have hit it into somthing already.... 'cause you're obviously missing something up there, she said

- what are you talking about? i knew what she was after. the juicy news about last night...

- duuh! you and scott!! she raised her voice and looked at me as if i were stupid

- what about scott? a voice came from behind, it was scott.

natasha's eyes got big and her mouth got wide open.

- ss...s....scott, she said

- hey natasha, he said and nodded towards her

- call me later v, OK?!!! natasha said and escaped through the door.

          i turned around and faced scott. a little smile had appeared on his face and to tell from his facial expression he wanted to know why natasha's and my conversation involved his name. i said nothing, instead i turned around and quickly went up to my room. i changed to a pair of pink cotton shorts and a tight, white t-shirt from victoria's secret saying: i love pink - & boys. then i opened the door and gave away a cry as my heart jumped a few steps back.

          - scott, you scared me!

- ohh, sorry... i didn't mean to. he said and smiled.

i felt his eyes were fixed on me.

- what? i said and looked back at him

- what did you say about me? he seemed curious

- ohh nothing special, i said teasing him a little bit and went back into my room and placed myself on my bed. he went right after me.

          his eyes moved around, then they suddenly stuck on a picture of me and a group of girls wearing bikinis. he looked at it for a long time.

- oh please, that is so typical male! i said, smiled and threw a pillow at him. i wanted to get things going.

- what are you talking about? i was just studying the beautiful background of the beach, he said and smiled

i raised my eyebrows and said: ohh really, i thought you were checking us out!

- me?! nooo!! girls are not in my interest. i like nature... he said and tried to hold back the giggle inside him

- you are seriously retarded, i said and bursted in laughter

he took the pillow and threw it back at me saying: IF i were looking at the girls, i was not looking at you, that's for sure

- you say so? ok, then i might as well just go and get myself wrapped in a huge robe instead, i said and got up to get my morning robe.

he looked at me, then he took my arm and pulled me back tightly against him.

- ohh, so you're only wearing this incredibly sexy outfit for my sake? we were so close i felt his warm breaths against my face

i smiled.

- don't be ridiculous. you can never have me, even if you tried, i said and reached for another pillow and threw it at him. i lost my balance and landed on my bed. i took my teddy bear and threw it at him and laughed. he tried to cover himself with his hands, then he got closer and closer, then all of a sudden he was over me. i felt his hands run along my body, then he started tickling me under my arms. i exploded in laughter and tried to kick and hit him in desperation. he grabbed both of my arms and held them down on my bed.

- vanessa, wait! where are you going? scott said and followed me

i smiled. i did not want him to believe he had ruined my plan or that he had gotten me so easily during a few seconds of stupidity. i may have made a mistake, but now i was going to make him believe i did it on purpose.

- come on, there's a party going on here!! we can't hide all night, right? i said and grabbed his arm and led him into the thick crowd.

i woke up with a strong headache wondering what the hell i had done last night. uh-oh! now i remember. i got a strong feeling that i wanted to puke any second. just the thought of what i had done made me nauseous. why?! why vanessa?! why did you have to be so god damn stupid? he is probably smiling right now, and if he is sleeping, he's probably smiling with his eyes closed. i mean, who wouldn't? i do every time after i've taken a guy and then left him with nothing more than a memory of my soft lips. but now, i was the big victim! he was the one who will soon leave me with only a memory. i had failed, i lost the game.

          the day went on. things were no different between me and scott, so the parents thought. and maybe scott did too... he talked to me and acted as if nothing had happened, but sometimes he would give me this look that said ''let's do it again'' or he would touch me in this sensitive kind of way. but as for me, i tried to stay away from scott as much as possible. seeing him would only bring out the horrifying memories in which i was the big loser. i hate losing. this was not a good beginning of summer break.

          the same day, or should i say evening, our parents went out to eat and then they would head for a casino. so me and scott had to stay home. natasha had called me several times, texting ''so, how did it go?'' and ''v, where r u, call me!!'' and ''v, i'm getting worried here!! when ur not answering, it must be somthin bad, somethin real wrong!! WHAT IS IT?'', and she was right. something was really wrong. you could describe it like a shoe, a pair of high heels for example. the heels were missing. or like a cheerleading pyramid, one cheerleader on the base was missing. everything would collapse!! but i had to be the heels, or the missing cheerleader. that's right... i had to keep on playing the game until i was the winner. the thought hit me; but who said it was a game from the very beginning? i tried not to think about it and went to look for scott.

          i found him in the backyard by the pool. his hair was wet. i didn't go there immediately, instead i went up to my room and quickly changed to my bikini, then i went back down.

- taking a swim? i asked him and slowly got into the pool, giving his eyes a chance to embrace every inch of my body. it was sunset and the poolwater bathed in lights of pink and orange.

he observed me, just as i thought, took off his t-shirt and then said:

- i am now.

he got into the pool and we looked at each other. the thought i had had the first time when he arrived here came back. i was back in the game and i was going to make him want me more. i gave him a little piece of me yesterday, but now, i was going to make him crave for me even more.

          i started swimming and he followed me. i acted as if he weren't there, but then he stopped for a while. so to keep everything going i turned around and said ''aren't you coming?'', a smile appeared on his face. i was tired of swimming so i got up and placed myself on the edge of the pool. he did the same thing. my heart was racing. a few drops of water ran along scott's cheeks. i took my own hand and wiped them off, gently, using every second to feel his soft skin against my fingers. he turned his head a little bit against my hand, and soon his lips were touching the palm of my hand. i didn't let go. i could feel his warm breaths against my palm. then he took my hand, and kissed it. he kissed my fingers all the way up to my arm. i closed my eyes and took a deep breath. my skin crawled and i got goosebumps. his lips moved from my shoulder to the back of my neck. his lips embraced every surface of my skin. then he pushed me down so that the cold, hard surface of the ground touched my back. he kissed the inside of my thives and worked his way up to my belly. my body shivered like a weak leaf a windy day. i opened my eyes and found him looking at me.

- VAANNEESSAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!

what was that?!!

did i want him or did i not want him? as a one-day fling or something more? and what did he think about me? did he want me the same way as i wanted him? but i don't even know how i want him... why on earth am i feeling this way? this is not me! noo! i'm right. this is not me. i want him. for one day or two. then it's goodbye mr handsome...

          - so... do you have a boyfriend? he suddenly said out of nowhere.

- no. i answered shortly.

- no? you look like a girl who has a boyfriend, scott said and smiled.

- why? i said and frowned.

- don't act stupid vanessa. you know you can have any guy you want. you're beautiful, that smile of yours can make any guy fall, and your eyes... can hypnotize every guy, make them weak. you know how every school has this perfect, popular girl that every girl wants to be and every guy wants to be with?

- yes?

- that's you. he let his eyes leap along my body, from my face down to my toes, and back up again.

          i noticed his chest started to move heavier and his breathing got a little bit louder. he was still observing my body. i felt his strong desire to touch and grab me everywhere. i felt the same thing; how wonderful it would feel like to have his fit, tanned body pressed against mine; his lips on my neck then to slowly move their way to my own lips; to feel him suck my lips and to feel his breathing get more uncontrollable; his big hands touch along the inside of my thives; my own hands touching, caressing, exploring... it was as if he could tell what i was thinking because in the next second he was throwing himself over me. his soft lips were searching for mine, once found, our lips met in a fiery passion we could not escape. our tongues flicking and carassing. we both breathed in the same rhythm that followed time; tick, inhale; tock, exhale; tick, inhale; tock, exhale and so on. his hands went down inside my dress, moving upwards, touching, feeling. i felt the bulb of his sex harden along with the pleasures he knew he was creating. it all happened so fast. i barely had any time to think. i was caught up in a mind full of lust and pleasure. every corner of my mind was occupied by him and there was no room for common sense.

          the waves hit the edge of the rock so hard it splashed water on us. he seemed to enjoy my body was wet and sticky by the ocean water and the humid air. but the water was like a wake up call. what was i doing? i gave away to easily! now he will think i'm cheap and easy that will give away for anything. damnit. i pushed him away and immediately got up on my feet. then i went towards the center of the party. i hated myself for letting him kiss me. i was supposed to be the seducer, not the seducee! now everything was ruined. for all my teenage life i had never given any sign of weakness, i had never let a guy rule over my body and possess it, i had been strong, i had been the one making them fall, not them making me fall. had i become weak?

we had two guest rooms, one scott's parents stayed in and the other was for scott. the day went on with a barbecue, the parents chatter seemed to go on forever. me and scott hung by the pool. even though we had not spoken to each other for ten years, i found it amazingly easy to talk and hang out with him. though the thoughts i had had about him earlier, still hung in the back of my mind.

          my phone rang, on the display it read: natasha.

- sorry, i got to take this, i said and answered the phone.

- v, are you coming or not? it's loads of people here! natasha said

          oh right, the party!

i thought about it. i would rather much want to be with scott. he seemed to be just like the guys i hung out with; interested in sports, popular, fit and so on, but yet i found him very interesting, and i knew that if i played my cards right, i would have him. just like with the other guys i've wanted. it was easy to make them fall, but as for myself, i had never been in love. it was just the chase that i liked. if i wanted something, i went right after it, and as soon as i've caught it, i let go.

- you know what, i'll be there. i said and hung up.

i looked at scott for a long time, feeling a great desire to touch him, wondering how it would feel to have his muscular arms rapped around me.

- do you wanna go to a party? it's down by the beach. i finally said.

- sure, it'd fun. he answered.

- we're going down to the beach, i said to my parents.

- ok honey, you know the curfew, my dad answered.

- i know, i know, twelve o'clock...

- twelve o'clock?! come on stephen! don't be so harsch. it's a friday night, besides scott will be there with her. let them have fun, george said.

- alright then, you go and have fun. i'll leave her in your hands scott, i trust that you will take care of her, he said and laughed.

- i will, scott said with a smile.

          i rolled my eyes and thought: could this be anymore embarassing? why don't you just hire a guard to come with me while you're at it.

          i went up to my room and opened the doors to my walk-in closet. i wanted to wear something that would make scott think of me as irresistible, but yet, not too revealing. it had to be something that would make him want to see more. i looked around for a while, and there it was! the perfect dress; a short, orange dress showing off a little clevage, but yet, not too much. the color went perfect with my tanned skin. i chose a pair of golden high heels, squeezed a bit of hair mousse in my hair and shook my head to make it look messy. i swept with the mascara brush over my long lashes and looked at myself in the mirror. i smiled. "i look good" i thought to myself. once i had finished my makeup i headed to scott's room and opened the door.

- oh my god, i am so sorry scott! i said in astonishment. but i couldn't deny i liked what was in my sight.

there he was, with no shirt on. his incredibly tanned and fit upper body appeared in front of my eyes.

- it's ok, he said with a grin, then he put on a light pink t-shirt with some kind of graffiti on it. oh my, pink on a guy is so incredibly sexy! i tried not to stare on him, so i looked out the window, but somehow my eyes managed to find its way back to scott. i smiled to myself, then his eyes met mine. time froze for a moment, and i felt he desired me too. if i can't have him soon, i will die.