seriously, i never thought i would cry this much. every day tears has been shed from my eyes, actually, several times a day. && for what reason? i miss my boyfriend soooooo so so so much i'm litterally drowning in tears. i know, i've been going on and off about this whole ''i-miss-my-boyfriend''-thing, but hey, this is my blog, it's about my life, and since i'm going through a very deppressive, sentimental period of time right now and you read about it you're just gonna have to deal with the fact that you're now officially a part of it too ^^ this might not be the most interesting or amusing thing in the world to read about, but i need somewhere to just, shake everything off. or at least i'll try to... it's just that, in every waking moment, or actually, when i'm asleep too, he always crosses my mind. then i think about how it was when he was right here with me, so wonderful. then time freezes. it's just me, and this empty apartment. tears fall without me noticing. i always look at those, now so empty, places where he used to sit & wonder: WHY CAN'T HE BE HERE WITH ME RIGHT NOW? IN THIS LONELY MOMENT AND COMFORT ME? WHYYY? i know why, but i just tend to believe that by some wierd powerful non-human force will automatically bring him here to me. but no... he's out of reach for me now & not for me to see until several weeks. to make a long story short: DAMN I MISS YOU BOY & I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL ♥