When I was only a few yards away from the beach, reality hit me like lightning. I absolutely dreaded this meeting, and feared whatever he was going to tell me. Only I did not know what I was afraid of hearing. My heart almost beat through my chest and I felt this worry circling in my body that almost made me nauseas. I was so close to turn around and walk back home, when I spotted Scott walking around in circles down by the shore, under the pier. My heart stopped for a moment and I realized that I was unconsciously holding my breath. I took a deep breath and allowed myself to walk up to him.
          Inside my head three voices were battling against each other. It was my conscience versus my devilish side, and then there was this third “just-shut-up-so-i-can-think-now-let's-be-rational”-voice. My conscience told me to be a good girl and confess to Scott that I was just as much of a hypocrite as he was, and that I was really sorry and then I would look at him with my big puppy eyes so that he could see the fake (well, half fake) guilt that was eating me up. My devilish side told me to screw my conscience and keep the pride up. The hell with Scott, who was he to play ME? I mean come on, who really needs Scott when I had a whole city with boys just waiting to eat right out of my hand. You can't go and beg for forgiveness you fool! You're the boss here, not him. Seriously, ever heard of female domination of the world? What happened to the girl power? And my “just-shut-up-so-i-can-think-now-let's-be-rational”-voice told me to... well, just shut up and be rational.
          I was getting closer and closer to Scott, and I noticed now that he had seen me. He stopped walking in circles and froze where he was, staring right at me. His eyes burning like hot coals. Oh crap! What am I gonna say to him? Do I say Hi, what's crackin? Or Hey Scott, long time no see huh? Or what?? WHAT DO I SAY?
          When I got to him my mind felt like like a tiny classroom with 50 screaming first graders. I didn't say anything to Scott, the panic had taking over my body completely. I must have looked like a mentally sick, crazy woman. Great.

- Hey... Scott said immediately.
          Oh good, he was the one to break the silence. Phew!
- Hi Scott... I answered with a weak smile.
- So... what have you been up to? Oh wait, you know what, don't answer that... I just tried to make this feel as casual as possible, but saying that only made it sound even... weirder...
- What do you want Scott?
- No... it's not what do I want, 'cause you know what I want. It's what do you want, V?
          My mind went blank. There was nothing. Absolutely nothing. All my crazy voices had shut up, like I wanted, but seriously, I was in an awkward situation and I needed guidance! Where were my stupid voices when I needed them?